When hot be thoroughly hot, when cold be thoroughly cold.

Yesterday was a bad day.  A day when I felt so bad that I barely felt like getting out of bed.  And then the self-incrimination began.  "Do I really feel so bad, or am I just giving in?"  "Am I really this sick, or am I just feeling lazy and lethargic?"  "Why the hell can't I just fight through this?"

And that's when it hit me.  Don't fight.  Practice non-resistance.

The Urban Monk article "How to bring the Peace of Non-Resistance into your life now" expresses it for me:

I mentioned cancer at the start of the article. What about it? Do I mean that you simply die, from non-resistance? No. Do everything you externally can to cure your cancer. Go the best hospital you can afford, find the best treatments you can, but give up all inner resistance. Let it be internally, in fact focus on happiness and the joy of life. That way you will not have any need for unhappiness, you’re not adding internal pain to your physical pain. If you pass on, you pass on in peace. If you recover, you recover in peace. In fact, your inner calm makes it likelier that your body will recover with medical treatment.

The idea is to be fully sick when I am sick, and be fully healthy when I am healthy. It's the cycle of life.  And those bad days will come.  When the diabetes becomes a problem, I want to be like animals and just lick my wounds and let myself heal.  When the heart disease forces incapacitation, just be incapacitated and wait for the better day.

The idea is to roll with the punches, to get into the rhythm of life.  And accept each day as it is.  Practice non-resistance.  Hopefully, I can learn to do this.